It is May 16, 2018. I am going to spend the next year of my life in radical gratitude. That doesn’t mean sweeping anything under a rug. That doesn’t mean sticking my head in the sand, What it means expressing gratitude through all incoming events, while not minimizing my feelings.
Today I have lost a friendship. I am sad. I am afraid. I am ashamed. Yet, I am grateful.
I am grateful that I had the opportunity to be this person’s friend for the time that I had.
I am grateful to have lived through this because it can help me feel empathy for my children when they go through similar life experiences.
I am grateful for the idea to express gratitude.
I am grateful for those around me that are consistently loving and supportive, including God, my fiance, my children, and friends.
I am grateful for my faith.
I am grateful for new friends. As the old friends leave, I make way for the potential for new, maybe better (?) friends.
I am grateful that I chose to reach out to this friend with one last vulnerable attempt at love. It was not well-received. But I am grateful for the bravery to try.
I am grateful for the increased clarity this brings.
On a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being the lowest/least and 10 being the highest/most:
Sad ranks at about a 6 on the scale.
Shame ranks at about a 9 on the scale.
Fear ranks at about a 4.
Gratitude, hmmmm……that ranks at about an 8. 🙂
And here we go……I’m excited for this new chapter in my life.