Yet, I Am Grateful

It is May 16, 2018.  I am going to spend the next year of my life in radical gratitude.  That doesn’t mean sweeping anything under a rug.  That doesn’t mean sticking my head in the sand,  What it means expressing gratitude through all incoming events, while not minimizing my feelings.

Today I have lost a friendship.  I am sad.   I am afraid.  I am ashamed.  Yet, I am grateful.

I am grateful that I had the opportunity to be this person’s friend for the time that I had.

I am grateful to have lived through this because it can help me feel empathy for my children when they go through similar life experiences.

I am grateful for the idea to express gratitude.

I am grateful for those around me that are consistently loving and supportive, including God, my fiance, my children, and friends.

I am grateful for my faith.

I am grateful for new friends.  As the old friends leave, I make way for the potential for new, maybe better (?) friends.

I am grateful that I chose to reach out to this friend with one last vulnerable attempt at love.  It was not well-received.  But I am grateful for the bravery to try.

I am grateful for the increased clarity this brings.

On a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being the lowest/least and 10 being the highest/most:

Sad ranks at about a 6 on the scale.

Shame ranks at about a 9 on the scale.

Fear ranks at about a 4.

Gratitude, hmmmm……that ranks at about an 8.  🙂

And here we go……I’m excited for this new chapter in my life.

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