I know that even my rough times are not rough times.
I know that I am overreacting to criticism and insults by those around me.
I know that I want to control not only those doing the insulting, but those around me and their reactions to the insults. Do they defend me? Do they abandon me?
But I know that all I can do is accept.
I know that acceptance and gratitude are my only defenses.
I act with as much integrity as I can muster in a given moment.
And likely so do those around me.
That is the hard pill to swallow. We are all doing our best.
Who am I to judge someone’s actions or reactions?
That is not mine to own.
I own this. That I am me. And I am doing my best.
God is trying to talk to me.
I am too stubborn to stop my thinking and listen to him.
He is always there. For all of us. Not just for me.
Stop. Breathe. Listen. Be.
God is speaking.