Control and Pimples

So, here I am.  On a business trip.  With a customer.  And I have this giant pimple on my chin.  This has been a lifelong struggle for me at different times.  And I’ll be damned if I can’t figure out why.  But this time.  This time is different.  Back to that control thing.  I cannot control the occasional pimple from invading my face.  Now, you might think that I can.  And maybe I can.  Is it a hormone imbalance?  Is it a nutrition deficiency?  Sugar overload?  Reaction to nuts?  I. don’t. know.  And that is the problem.  I don’t know.  Because I don’t know, I have no actual control.  I can flail around and try a million things.  But I am not likely to determine the exact reason for it.  So, I am not in control.  Stop flailing.

But, what I do know is that I have gratitude and here’s what i am grateful for:

  • I am grateful that we don’t all have control over everything in life – sounds good, but would actually be horrible.
  • I am grateful that I have this giant pimple on this business trip and that it isn’t my daughter having it on her class trip last week.
  • I am grateful for my daughter’s experience last week with her giant outbreak that turned out to be staph so that i can have the perspective of gratitude for this one giant pimple – ok, so there are a few little ones as well. 🙂
  • I am grateful that we caught her infection in time before her trip so she was cured by the time of her trip.
  • I am grateful to her for modeling how to have a single pimple on her face without freaking out.
  • I am grateful to my other daughter for also modeling that pimples do not affect a person’s worth.
  • I am grateful that I made it safely to my destination.
  • I am grateful that I am here and not wanting to drink, anesthetize the lonely night away, which is what I might have done in the past.
  • I am grateful for a movie I want to watch tonight.  (The Netflix Movie – Happy Anniversary – maybe cheesy, but I’m looking forward to a good movie in bed all snuggled up.)
  • I am grateful that I am going home tomorrow!  🙂
  • I am grateful that today’s meetings are over.
  • I am grateful that I was able to make a dermatology appointment for Thursday – just two day away!
  • I am grateful that I don’t have hotel bathroom lighting at my house.
  • So, for all of these things, I am grateful.

I am feeling secure and comfortable in myself, even despite the pimple.  I can almost laugh at it.  The only reason I can’t is that I’m choosing to just simply act like it isn’t there.  Oh…..

  • I’m grateful that I haven’t picked at it so much that it’s a giant crater on my face that is not coverable – it might be huge, but it’s clean.  Gross, I know.

So, I was planning on posting something amazing and profound about labels and throwing them off, but now that will wait until tomorrow.  Today was superficial, or was it? 🙂

 

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